I'm dying inside
10 days ago today I had to send my baby Harley to the pound for a 10 day quarentine. Harley was a very loving,smart wonderful dog with myself, husband and three boys. He was the bomb.. Problem for us is that Harley had a serious aggresion problem and would get into total attack mode when the bell rang, someone walked by ect.. 10 days ago for the second time Harley bit someone. My husband was talking to my neighbor over our backyard fence and my neighbor put his fingers on top of our joint fence with his fingers hanging over and Harley started to bark, my husband told him sternly "NO!" the minute my husband turned around to continue talking my dog lunged up at bit the hell out of my neighbors fingers. The bleeding would not stop. It was bad. We talked for about 10 minutes about it and decided that this had to stop. If it had been a child who threw his ball over the fence and went into get it, He would have killed him. We decided to let Harley be put down by the shelter that we legally had to return him to because thats where I had gotten him from 6 years ago. God I can hardly explain how hard this has been on me, I cry ALL the time and my husband and I are at each others throats. We love him so very much and today at 10:00am they are going to put my baby down. I don't know if we have done right by him, but I do know that I have never felt such sorrow and pain. I can't eat, sleep, or focus. I miss him terribly bad. I found myself looking at pictures of him this morning while having my coffee and just crying my brains out for day 10 now. I have bad nightmares when I do sleep. This stinks and I am at a total lose over here. God, I want my dog back!! Harley, know that Mommy loves you so much and that I miss you with all my heart and soul. Go to heaven my baby, and know I will NEVER forget you!!!!! God help me.
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