harleys Mom Forever

I wrote earlier today about my sweet Harley and what is going on , thought I would update... I called the shelter a couple of hours ago to see if they had put him down, ask me why I did it and I will give you two different reasons. One reason is from the brain and that was to be able to try to get on with my life and also we are holding a small service in the back yard where I am going to bury my sweethaerts collar and leash. Second reason is I miss the hell outta this dog !! They made me feel like crap and told me how great Harley has been and asked me when I was going to pick him up. I explained to them what happened and how aggresive he has become over the years. It was terrible and put me in tears. She said that I had until Nov. 3rd to pick him up or they were going to put him down. So, I have been sucker punched over here and I hope I am making the right choice, I just keep saying what if it had been a child? Maybe I am messed up but I am acually questioning picking him up, but I know I just can't....HELP.......