[Locruid]

Let me start by stating my pup is NOT dead.

About 4 days ago, our 6-7 month old Chihuahua was playing in the dining room with our older chihuahua like they always do. Suddenly the pup let out the most horrible yelp and my wife and I ran into the room to see what the commotion was, fully expecting a temp problem. As I arrived the pup was sitting on her bottom with her right paw stuck WAY up the air and she was looking straight at me while wailing. Immediately I could see the problem. Somehow she had terribly broken her leg.

I scooped her up carefully and the wife and I rushed her to the vet. The Vet determined that there was a good possibility they will have to amputate the leg at which point even worse news was brought to us. They wanted $1500 up front for the surgery. But even if amputation wasnt necessary we were still looking at $1000 to fix the leg. Well, in this state and time we do NOT have that kind of money. Luckily for us we were able to turn her over to the Humane Society for her to be taken care of.

Now i am a person who painfully admits that the best thing to do for her was to break our own hearts but she truly is better off in the care she has now. But I am still having problems letting go. Im a mechanic by trade and the last memory I have of her was her holding her paw up and looking at me like she wanted me to fix it. She was also a VERY playful dog and LOVED challenges (climbing up my legs by herself when I was sitting) and I cant help but think of having her leg amputated and missing out on "having 4". I know ill never see her again but I cant help but worry and feel guilty at the "life" stolen from her. Also knowing she's all alone in a cage when for the last 3-4 months she has known nothing but freedom of movement inside the house and sleeping under covers. Not to mention the joy of playing with our other 2 chihuahuas.

I guess in all honosty, my heart is looking for acceptance at what I did and looking for guidance in knowing she will be ok. I know for those short 4-5 months we had her that we treated her great and she COULD have led a much different life, but it still pains me to have a member of our family taken from us (even voluntarily). Thank You for reading

[Lara's mom]

You know, it is never a good idea to get a pet unless you have the financial means to provide for it. That is why I am a huge advocate for insurance which would have covered something like this. I'm so sorry you had to give your fur baby up.

[Locruid]

We normally do, but soon after getting her we ran into a bit of a Financial hardship that severely depleted our savings and just holding on. We already carry insurance on one of our chihuahuas cause of a medical issue with her but we just ran into a streak of bad luck and just starting to get back on our feet.

Things happen, things change, its life. Im just not a big fan at how its done....

[akismaster]

Well, who would even think that their dog's leg will get amputated or cost a $1000 to get fixed anyway? I don't believe it's your fault. Well, you didn't have the money but still you gave her the life she wanted. But still nobody would expect EVER to have that cost immediately to happen. If you would, you wouldn't have went through it in the first place.

Just be strong. You'll need days to recuperate even for just a bit.

[lange]

Locruid, sorry for the pain your feeling. Honestly, I think dogs are sooo much more resiliant than us weak people are! They don't see handicaps like we do. They live and they live to the fullest. They only need time to get used to something and then they are at 'GO'! You'll take much longer getting over your sadness, imo. Not sure if that's a good consolation or not....

As for money...I also think you should be prepared when owning a dog BUT even the funds I put aside can get depleated quick depending on what comes up that given year with our dogs. Anyway, I figure you live and learn, right?