Hi Cheryl, I tried to put this in the dog's with health issue's sub-forum but it would'nt let me. I don't know if you know about this or not but it's for reporting reaction's to drug's..
Oh dear! I'm so sorry...I can't even imagine how badly you must be hurting. There have been so many similar stories from other members about that horrible drug! I just cannot understand why it hasn't been taken off of the market!
Can I offer you a bit of advice? Take your time and grieve your loss. However, PLEASE don't blame yourself. You did the best you could do with the information you had available at the time. One day once the hurt is not so terribly painful, consider getting another dog. Your departed friend would want you to share the love you have to give another dog a good and happy life.
Once again, please accept my sincere condolences on the loss of your beloved fur baby.