[tkridesalone]

I AM REALLY NOT SURE WHAT I AM DOING I JUST WANT TO TRY ANY THING SO MAYBE SOMETHING WILL TURN FOR THE GOOD
I’m writing this because I’m at the end of all hope and don’t know where else to turn for help. everyone has told me these dogs are going to be the death of me and if that is what it takes to save my dogs so be it
. I am about to kill myself but i cant give up but i dont no how much longer i can do this and living in a person back yard they have no water electric i walk to get water ever day for my dogscarring a 5 gallon jug in this heat it is taking its toll on me been told i needed to give bill a day i try to give at least 20 dollors like ever 2 days for my dogs i will do anything for my dogs and i have been doing any work i can find to try to make it day to day i went and started mowing yards cutting trees cleaning i have no truck any more so i walk or pay some one for rides to work i lost my partner of18 years then our house being alone no house job then my rott of bone cancer 3 months later his mate my enlish mastif of tumors i now have 7 3 month old puppies 7 big dogs people have left for dead or abused i have taken in i have been put throuigh hell from some costing around 500 getting 4 from the pouind
.I LOVE MY BABIES I JUST NEED MORE WORK AND A LITTLE TIME TO SAVE UP BUT WHEN I LIVE THE GATE GETS OPENED THEN I AM CALLED TO LET ME NO MY DOGS ARE RUNNING THE STREETS SO I WORRY WHEN I LEAVE TO WORK
I AM A HARD WORKER BUT I CANT SEEM TO GET ANY BODY TO UNDER STAND I CANT LIVE WITH OUT MY BABIES I HAVE LOST EVER THING I REFUSE TO LOSE THEM I WOULD DO WHAT I CAN. I AM DESPERATE. MY DOGS ARE LIKE CHILDREN TO ME AND I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO STOP CRYING. I WILL BE MOVING OUT OF THIS YARD BECAUSE HOUSE IS BEING SOLD AND I WILL NOT BE ABLE TO TAKE MY DOGS WITH ME. THIS IS A TEMPORARY LIVING ARRANGEMENT UNTIL I CAN GET MYPROBLEM TAKEN CARE OF. PLEASE HELP!!!

[Yorkie Mommy]

Have your tried a local rescue to get help with the doggies?

[Marc]

This isn't the reply you want.

You need to speak with someone who can listen to you and help you understand the resources your community has available to you. You have sadness that you cannot handle yourself. When you wrote your post, I read many of the things I've felt myself. I feel like we could understand each other if we knew each other. The tragedies you've dealt with are too hard for anyone, much less if they feel alone as you've written. It's no wonder you've clung to your dogs like you have.

I needed help. I think you're like me and you should talk to someone too. Walk into an ER or clinic if you have no insurance and they will give you a referral to a mental health specialist. I see someone regularly to help me sort through the mess I go through. You owe it to your babies. It will help you work better, treat your dogs better, be a better friend, etc.

You sound so helpless in your post, but you're not! Seek out some help like I did and things will get better. They will get better.

[tkridesalone]

yes i did try shelters and they endedup putting on of my babies down even the man that pick up my pups said they only thing he could see wrong was they were a little fat but before i could show up with all the money i lost she beast after sitter there crying i was 11,00 short but a woman came out showed me a list of dogs said mine were not on it to be destroyed so come in the mornign and get tmen i was they open at 10am i was there at 10:18 and they done put she beast down after i went after the woman that did this asking her why she new i was trying to get themn back and i would be back i was there 4 days in a row why did she do this they called the police i was made to live the property i did howecer get my other 4 babies before i left
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